Musings yet again
It’s amazing that I finally have time to sit down relaxed on my bed, able to think through everything that has happened so far. Life is definitely a gradual learning process that we have to go through each day. We can’t deny that life smacks us on the face sometimes because it really does, both in the most subtle but yet obvious ways. I have learn to accept and challenge the various obstacles thrown in my face. One of which is to open my heart more to the people around me. Preceding to current observations , I have always been the guy with a gregarious personality in the eyes of many people. One who would always appear as a certain way, with the similar endearing actions, but nobody could get the chance to step into his comfort zone.
Well there are many contributing reasons to this ” abnormality” , some of which are the betrayal and deceit that I have faced while growing up. Because of these unfortunate events that took place, it has been quite noticeable that I have built this protective wall around me. This wall would ensure that no one would be able to penetrate deep into my personal life. Honestly, I don’t understand why this has to happen but somehow, I have managed to survive being like this. To some of good friends, they did warn me of the consequences and yes, the effects did happen eventually.
Okay , I should stop here now. My head’s kind of in a total mess.
